Becoming the Light

Reflections on Healing, Identity, and Choosing Love

This morning, I had one of those quiet, humbling moments where you realize just how much you've changed. You know the kind—where you’re in the middle of a situation that would’ve spun you out in the past, but instead, you feel grounded, aware, and a little in awe of your own growth. It’s wild to witness yourself—to really witness yourself evolving in real-time.

Over the weekend, I noticed something: I can be really stubborn. Like, deeply, rigidly stubborn. Me? Rigid? I had to laugh—because on the surface, I crave freedom. Fluidity. Flow. But there it was, this quiet but clear awareness of a part of me that resists being told what to do. And rather than shame it, I got curious. (Side note: if you haven’t explored Internal Family Systems (IFS), it’s such a powerful framework for this kind of inquiry.)

What I found, when I followed the thread, was “Little Julie.”

As a child, I grew up in an environment that often felt unsafe. Subtle forms of abuse, control, unpredictability… the air around me was thick with unspoken rules and landmines. So what did my nervous system do? It adapted. It protected. It became strong-willed. Opinionated. In control. Dissociation became a way to cope—like living inside a snow globe, watching life but not fully in it. I couldn't control the chaos, but I could control me. And that’s where the stubbornness started to bloom: as a boundary, a shield, a survival strategy.

In middle school, that same part learned to use strong opinions as social currency—aligning, dividing, choosing sides. “I like her.” “I don’t like her.” It wasn't just mean girl energy—it was a way to matter. To be seen. And what I’m learning now, through years of peeling back the layers, is this: so much of our behavior—especially the parts we judge—are rooted in the purest longing to be seen, safe, and loved.

With awareness comes a new kind of freedom. I'm learning that I can choose to let go of these old vibrations—not because they were wrong, but because I simply don’t need them anymore. I don’t need to keep performing old protection patterns that were written by a scared little girl. I can love her. I can thank her. And then I can choose who I want to be today.

That, to me, is the essence of becoming. Not fixing. Not endlessly healing. But becoming.

Becoming the one who knows she is worthy. Who chooses compassion. Who knows she is the light.

And now, I want to share a channeled message that came through. This is for me, but maybe it’s also for you. I can feel the energetic shift when I open to share like this—it’s tender. But here it is:

Channeled Message: The Choice of Light

LOVE is the goal, because LOVE is LIGHT.Light is the highest frequency there is—the highest note sung in the universe. Love is the great thread from which each of your lives has been spun.Tether into this. Tether into LOVE. The Light of LOVE.

When you allow yourself to radiate so brightly,when you let yourself shine like the brightest star in the galaxy (which you are),the old parts of self—the “shadow”—begin to burn away. Not with force, but with illumination.

The healing journey can become a rabbit hole. You can spend a lifetime healing... or you can choose to spend a lifetime living.

You get to choose.And we hope you choose JOY. ADVENTURE. PLAY.....And deep service to others.

The veil is lifting on the planet. A great choosing is upon you. You are being asked:

Will you choose Love or Fear? Light or Suffering? Hope or Hopelessness?

A new Earth is being born—and you are creating it with every choice.

Return to Love.

Return to the remembrance of who you are.

Return to the frequency of Christ Consciousness.

We are here. And we are with you.

So that’s where I am this morning. Soft, raw, and deeply grateful. For the chance to see myself more clearly. For the courage to love the parts I used to judge. And for the reminder that this life—this moment—is a gift I get to fully live.

Until next time,

xo,

Julie